I need to write. I’m itching to write. I haven’t had time to do anything but think, worry and dream about work. I feel like I’ve lost my rat race edge. I haven’t even been able to find the time to tell you guys about my nuptials! Things have been stressful as fuck lately but here I am, still going, as I should be right? I have my days though when I’ll let myself completely lose it and I’ll cry because the dishrag isn’t hanging asymmetrically enough or some shit like that haha. Yes, I’m very much so a girl in that sense. I need to get back to my numbers and reports and data management now…….this can’t be life.
Dear Robert Ford,
We're not friends. We're never going to be friends, so I'm not calling you Rob.
I am however, going to call you out.
I tweeted a little while ago that I'm not ashamed to call Toronto home after last night's shooting. I am however, ashamed that you, the Mayor of this city reacted the way you did and said the words you said.
I know that you cant ever really be ready for unpleasant events, that’s what makes them unpleasant right? The fact they literally knock your feet from right under you. You end up landing on your ass, might sit there and lick your sore spots a bit but goddammit you get up after and shake that shit off. No sense in lamenting yourself or waiting for things to pass on their own, just keep going. Somebody close to me has been telling me recently that no matter what I just have to go on with my life…well yea, life doesn’t stop for anyone or anything does it? Often times we end up watching it run circles around us because we literally sit in one spot and just watch it go as we brew in whatever hurt, bitterness or disloyalty was inflicted on us. You can’t let life bring you down, you have to grab it by the reigns and take control of that bitch! Life does what you want it to, especially yours…YOU CONTROL YOUR DESTINY. Sure, I believe in God. I believe that there are consequences to all the choices we make, good or bad, but OUR choices nonetheless. I don’t believe God is as omnipotent as they make him/her/it out to be. The best thing we were given was free will, it’s the harshest and most beautiful quality we have as a species besides the ability to love. So take charge, keep going and never stand still.
This is what should be done by one who is skilled in goodness
And who knows the path of peace:
Let them be able and upright, straightforward and gentle in speech,
Humble and not conceited, contented and easily satisfied.
Unburdened with duties and frugal in their ways.
Peaceful and calm, and wise and skilful,
not proud and demanding in nature.
Let them not do the slightest thing that the wise would later reprove.
They should wish:
In gladness and in safety
May all beings be at ease.
Whatever living beings there may be,
Whether they are weak or strong, omitting none,
The great or the mighty, medium, short or small,
The seen and the unseen,
Those living near and far away,
Those born and to-be-born,
May all beings be at ease!
Let none deceive another, or despise any being in any state,
Let none through anger or ill-will wish harm upon another.
Even as a mother protects with her life her child, her only child,
So with a boundless heart should one cherish all living beings,
Radiating kindness over the entire world,
Spreading upwards to the skies, and downwards to the depths,
Outwards and unbounded, freed from hatred and ill-will.
Whether standing or walking, seated or lying down,
Free from drowsiness, one should sustain this recollection.