As 5:30PM comes around and I’m still here sitting at work waiting for yet another meeting to start I have to sit back and reflect on how nicely everything has fallen into place. I’m in the best financial position I’ve ever been in, I’m able to look ahead and work towards all my future goals with the utmost confidence, my kids are healthy and I’m giving them as much stability as I can with hopes that soon they’ll have all the stability in the world and I’m getting married to a man that has helped stand me up, dust me off and take every step to where I am right now. I look forward to every single day now. Do you know what an amazing feeling that is?? I used to dread waking up every morning and having a whole day to face. That was a horrible feeling. I’m elated with the turn my life has taken and knowing that its only going to get better is more motivation to do and be anything I want. Sometimes you just have to sit back and reflect.
After spending an evening decorating our tree and hearing the same Christmas carol CD for the 5th time that day the girls decided to jam out to some Jose Feliciano’s Feliz Navidad. When it comes to the Holiday season I can be a real Scrooge about it, I’m so not a fan, but I do try for their sake to try and make the most of it. In doing so I have my moments that I can capture and add to my chest of memories, those moments where everything feels so right, so content. Those moments where you feel like you’re right where you’re supposed to be, this was one of those, this whole evening with my kids and luckily I was able to capture less than a minute of it on video. In true nature to the sibling love that’s there between them someone comes out falling over at the end…someone usually does in these videos I have of them. Anyways, thought I’d share with all of you yet another entertaining night with my double Js
This little girl changed not just my life but she also changed me completely, in so many aspects. She came into my life when I was still very young and in doing so I was forced to mature and become the best mother I could considering my circumstances I was in at that point in my life, my relationship not just with her father but with everybody around me. My baby has been my source of strength since I found out I was pregnant. She’s such a blessing in my life and I know for a fact that she will make every second of all my struggles I’ve had to go through worth it. She is my pride, such an effortlessly smart girl. It’s so refreshing and rewarding to see.
I would fight anything and anyone to keep her happy. She’s been present through so many of my struggles and together we’ve gotten through them. I truly hope we can continue being there for each other as the years pass, she has been a little guardian angel for me so many times. I don’t think men (except for a rare few) will ever quite understand what a mother is willing to sacrifice for her kids, especially for a child as special as this one. I confidently say that my daughter has a great future ahead of her and all I can do is pray with whatever faith I have left that God will watch over her through it all and guide her every step of the way through her life.