You know I keep thinking of pros and cons as to whether I want Him to move back in with me or not but the fact that I’m so indecisive about it and have to keep going back and forth from yes to no makes me really weary. I don’t mind being on my own with the kids. Of course I lose it sometimes and can definitely use the help but for the most part I always get a feeling that I won’t be getting much help once he’s back anyways. It’ll go back to being the same as it was before…me being home alone dealing with the girls come time for them to eat, bathe and go to sleep. He’ll be out trying to make a buck, come home and do whatever he’s going to do for a bit then we go to bed. Very dull.
I don’t want to have to deal with anybody elses bad moods and tantrums, I have enough trouble dealing with my own. Dont want to have to worry about keeping something off the floor or washing dishes if I don’t want to just because I’m worried that the other person is going to criticise me for it or even worry about what he might think. If I clean I clean, if I don’t I don’t.